ah HAH!

It isn't everyday you wake up to an "ah hah!" moment. You know, one of those moments were you seem to have clarity in even the most difficult of situations. You wake up and all the questions and random thoughts you've been mulling over for the past few minutes, or months or even years all cumulate in this one amazing point of understanding. You say to yourself, "yes! i finally see- all these things have happened for a reason and I am now much older and wiser." And then minutes later you may have another one of these rare and precious moments and all of a sudden whatever seemed so clear before might be completely different. Thats the hard part about clarity (and the funny thing about the human mind/heart)- experience and information seems to muddle the calm and steady waters a bit. But on that day(or moment), that day of the amazing Ah hah moment you can pretend to yourself that maybe you are headed in the right direction. Maybe you are becoming that person you actually want to be. I had that day 2 days ago. I woke up and I realized that life is about choices. You can choose to be good or bad or funny or distant. To hold grudes over things you can't change or to let them go. You can throw the baby out with the bath or you can keep the baby and change the water. I choose to let things go. I choose to live my life knowing that holding onto the past, or even a present pain can only hurt you. I choose happiness. I choose to believe that if you are good to others, good will come to you. I choose to believe that forgiveness is the only way to true contentment. I choose to believe that the only way to get what you want is to create opportunities for yourself. I choose to believe that love is always always better than indifference, even when its hurtful. I choose to love myself and to love others as I love myself. So make a choice, and never be afraid of consequence. You are stronger than you think you are.